I remember how I got 60 points for my driving test in 2004....It was an embarrassing moment as I was the only one in the team who came back without a licence. I wanted to give up the idea of driving as the feeling was bad. But I knew that to give up on driving, I might as well resign – it’s just as ‘good’ as that If I’m not able to drive, then my presence in the team in redundant. I'm glad my LEADER made me realised that there was an SOLUTION .
Well though I did not get my license through a Traffic Police officer (the normal way for many), I got mine through "Conversion". Collecting mileage wasn't easy either. 10000 was a great figure to collect and that equates to 2 years of driving emergency vehicles, lorries and cars. And the "Best" thing was, I did not have a personal coach to guide me. I just had to look out for any forms of opportunities to drive.
This is really what I call my personal version of a self-directed learning.
I had to put my fear of driving behind, for I knew then if I was scared to drive; I am a selfish person for my troop had to deploy others to drive for emergency calls instead. Practically the whole team will get affected because I am scared. I knew then I cannot afford to let my team down.
My first career taught me the basic skill of sensing for "Responsibility". When you become responsible for your team, subconsciously, your fear becomes secondary. And I was honoured that my team was willing to provide me with all the encouragement I needed. I realised at the end of the day we not only work for ourselves but to strive for the team and the organization.
Well, the hard work pays off, now I am a licensed driver. Definitely a personal reward for me as not only I have picked up a new skill, I picked it up for free. I won't say I am scared to drive today, but I will not hesitate when I need to.
Sometimes preparation is vital for any test, however there is none greater to learning then to do it yourself. And doing yourself would mean many trials and ERRORS. And when you learnt, you have got to learnt it the hard way. That would mean many, many days of crying alone and self-reflection yet maintaining your pace with others. You can't afford any self-pity. No one's going to listen for there is no gun being placed on your head. You either move on or you quit.
That's the Test of Life.
Thus now for the coming test, I strive to do my best through embracing everything with sincerity in my job, honesty to the people around me and loyalty to the school and the leader. I know I can and I will do it. For the school, the staff, the students and for myself.
Just like what I did then, at the end of the day , I'm Happy and so are they (=
The team that taught me how to live through Life